...wanna know who said that? Abraham Lincoln. Pretty smart guy. And I agree with him completely. The past few days I have surprised myself with my own wittiness, jokes, and overall ability to make other people laugh... but that's not necessarily a good thing. When I sit down by myself and have no other pressing thoughts besides those 5 chapters I need to read by tomorrow and the Japanese quiz I need to prepare for, I find myself in a serious state of depression. Like serious enough that really bad thoughts have swirled through my confuzzled brain more than once and I don't immediately shoo them away. I don't know why. I have had to stop myself from crying at least 3 times within the last hour. Wanna know the saddest part? The one person who should be the most concerned, or the most currently updated on me and my issues hasn't even noticed. An AMAZING friend in New Jersey notice... but not one 3 minutes away.
Maybe this isn't worth it...
I'm giving up a lot... a whole lot...
and again there's that nasty thought swirling through my head again...
I think I'll go dwell on it for a bit as I pretend to sleep.
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